It's nine o'clock on Easter Sunday morning. Christ is risen. I am writing this now because of my intention to write every day and I missed yesterday. I am not sure what there is to write.
What have I learned so far in this challenge? To recap, it's a self-improvement drive before my birthday. I have learned that it is worth spending-out on big ticket investments in how I look and that I tend to regret not buying these sooner. One exception to this has been the Slendertone Face that I bought a couple of years ago - on Sali Hughes' recommendation - and have hardly used. It looks funny on my face and I think my head must be the wrong size/shape for it. I could give it another go I suppose. It always feels like it's on wrong.
I have also learned that I need to commit to going places as I get cold feet the nearer the time comes. There is always something else to be doing, or I feel the need to "bank" photodamage by staying at home and indoors. I reckon I am going to give the photophobia one more year and then just give up the ghost on preserving my youthful looks. It's impossible anyway.
What have I learned about exercise? That I really enjoy it if I go regularly, and that doing 40 seconds in the morning is a good way to build up a habit that can be expanded when the time comes. The 40 seconds I do is better than the 10 minutes I tell myself I don't have the time to do.
One thing I have really learned is the extent to which I waste time and attention browsing mindlessly through the internet, especially on Twitter and Youtube. I need to take breaks from focus, not breaks for focus. The worst thing about it is the illusion of connection when I am actually here in the house on my own.
I am useless at connecting with other people or responding when people reach out to me. This is something to really work on in the next three weeks. It's a quarter of the time gone already. Time to switch it up a gear. I think I will draw a nine-box grid, like in "Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway", and identify the nine areas I need to work on, as well as the 10 things. One thing that is going well is drinking more water and less San Pellegrino. The San Pellegrino was just a habit at the end of the day.
Am watching Brené Brown on Netflix. Her anecdotes are painful in the extreme and I don't know how her husband puts up with it. (I expect the money compensates). Nevertheless, she is right in her whole "call to courage" manifesto and I think I will read "Daring Greatly" again. That and Kristin Neff's book. I feel the Kristin Neff book would find a bigger audience had she omitted the bit about improving her son's autism through submitting to being beaten by shamen.